Good morning Everyone!

Wow, it feels so good to be back!  I was on the pro-anorexia website about a year ago, until my husband found out, which was a total disaster!  I can only access LJ at work and dare not do it at home for fear of my husband finding out again.  He watches everything I do...  I think this site is amazing and truly supportive!  I struggle with my self diagnosed ED every single day, which I've had since I was 13 (a long time...).  I used to purge by throwing up, again until my husband caught me in the shower - now I abuse laxatives when I binge...I restrict and am obsessed with calorie counting...I'm ashamed of my body and hate the way I look (even though my husband tells me how beautiful I am)...I'm here for support and to chat with people that are going through the same things.  My stats:

5'4
CW - 111 lbs (disgusting, I know...)
HW - 177 lbs (pregnancy)
GW1 - 105 lbs
GW2 - 100 lbs
UGW - 98 lbs

Have a great day everyone!